All posts filed under: Reflections

Shaken, Not Stirred

They say time heals, but they forgot to include the fact that before it heals you, it numbs you. The blows weren’t fatal enough – you were not strong but you were brave enough to grasp on to life – your heart learns how to numb itself and you gradually need to fight less and less hard to stay afloat.

Mad

There are times when I feel like I want to pour my hearts out into words, but I can hardly do so. Sometimes, thoughts go by so fast, I didn’t have enough time to translate┬áthem into words. I can’t quite find the right words. I keep it all in my head. The writer’s block is so real, and just like unrequited love; the more you try to resist it, the more it happens. I try too hard to make something out of the obscure nothingness. I always do. I am afraid to speak. And there is really nothing worth saying sometimes. I have forgotten how to feel. I made myself not feel. What is the point of feeling so much and what does it bring me when I confront my feelings? Again, nothing. There is no passion and I do not long for anything. I fill the voids and pockets of time seeking excitement in life, to find meaning in nothing, to seek comfort in the unfathomable vacuum I have put myself in. Because I …

Ageless Beauty

From the moment we were born, a new lotus flower also appears in heaven. Each flower represents a person on earth. In our short lifetime in this world, we need to do good. And every single time we do a good deed, a drop of water gets dropped into your own lotus flower. And if, by the time you pass, your lotus flower is big enough for you to sit in it, you can go to heaven.

Going Solo

I never knew how people did it – travelling alone, that is. I remembered myself to be a braver person; someone who was not afraid to speak one’s mind and act on one’s thoughts. But I am deeply fearful of being alone.

God Save The Queen

It is always easy to list down the items you have on your Bucket List; easy to tell people around you that one has to live life to the fullest and you have probably read a thousand and one article on Facebook telling you specifically the things to avoid doing (or do) if you don’t want to grow old with regrets. Does living life to the fullest everyday really makes us feel like we have the world? “To live a few years of my life like most people won’t, so that I can live the rest of it like most people can’t.” I have heard this quote once and I find it hard to forget. Often when I find myself slipping away, trying to find excuses for myself so that I can take a little time off from work, I repeat this quote in my head. It makes a lot of sense to me. Except, now I finally realised I’ll need to survive the “living a few years of my life like most people won’t” …

How To Be Successful

It is really happening. Today, 9 months and 14 days after we started an online store selling tiramisu, we made a big decision. We are going to start a cafe. OUR very own! I am scared. Petrified, to be honest. This is going to be the biggest step I have taken in my life and something I put my whole self into. As thrilled as I can be, I cannot help but worry about all the possibilities about the shop failing, and us losing everything we have built so far. We are at the point where we are at the end of a cliff, waiting for the next step. We have wings but we are not sure if they can make us fly. But if we stay put in this comfort zone and waiting for someone to build a bridge for us, for someone to make things happen, we will never know if we can take flight. This has been such a steep learning curve and I think I have never worked so hard in …

Aza Aza Fighting!

It has been an overwhelming week for me, busy as a bee. I tell myself everyday that this will all be worth it and one day, I will be able to see the returns. The Tiramisu Hero is almost 3 months old now. Despite being propelled straight into “auntie-hood” – stuck in the kitchen all day and only shopping in baking supplies stores, it gives me a great sense of achievement watching the business grow bit by bit everyday. We’ve been having return customers and good feedback too! They always make our day. If you are one of those people who has supported The Tiramisu Hero in one way or another, I want to say a big THANK YOU to you from the bottom of my heart. ­čÖé I used to be a worry wart who would only think about the bad side of everything. “What if it fails?” “What if we keep losing money? How long should we hold on for?” “Where will it takes us?” “Will we be able to earn enough to …

Last chance

I’m tired. Not jaded, not sick of something I’m doing, but just pure fatigue because of all the constant lack of sleep every night. It is almost 6am and I am just done with my shower. I’m dying to hit the bed but the bugging urge to update my blog has driven me to sit before the laptop again. The Tiramisu Hero is 20 days old as of today. Even though we are this young, I am very happy to have created something I am proud of with A. As I was talking to A about The Tiramisu Hero this afternoon, I suddenly realized that this is actually one of the biggest thing I have set out to do. And it somehow feels like a “last chance”. I don’t know if you know what I mean by “last chance”, but I hope you do. I want to break out of the cycle. I don’t want to be doing something I dread. I don’t want to be working my ass off to make money for another …